Emotions live in the body, a group of physical sensations we hold within ourselves. They are meant to be felt. Gently.
The panic that shut the door to my curiosity for 20 years was an emotion that I had to engage with before I could take any steps forward in understanding…
Slow down. Emotions live in the body, a group of physical sensations we hold within ourselves. They are meant to be felt. Gently. Slowly. Bodies open to slow; they don’t like fast. If we move too fast, we can’t let the emotions flow through us. They are meant to have a full life cycle, a beginning, a middle, and an end. Resisting keeps them stuck – there is only a beginning, over and over and over – no middle or end, no release.
You have a right to your emotions.
You have a right to feel your emotions.
You have a right not to feel your emotions, but are you willing to feel them?
Curiosity, by its very nature invokes emotion. You cannot be curious without feeling but curious I was, and the panic was close. I learned that you can only experience an intense wave of emotion for 90 seconds and that became my bravery mantra. What I discovered is that 90 seconds of consciously feeling and engaging with panic came and went was like a release valve that allowed a lessening of the pressure. I still felt the emotion, but it was more manageable. The texture of the panic changed and my relationship with it became kinder and more familiar.